catching me off guard

Relieved, free, letting out final sighs of happiness and pleasure.

I am all smiles again.

The burden's been lifted, a burden I didn't even know I had until it was taken off of my shoulders, which makes it even more relieving. All of the question marks, the queasiness, the worrying, the tiredness have all vanished into thin air ALL at the SAME TIME, slowly turning that question mark into a "=" and a ")".

It is true after all, that you need an extra fresh ice-cold water to be thrown into your face to realize that you've been living in a destructive heat all this time. You are now able to see things in a clearer view, put on a bigger and more sincere smile, stand up tall and straight and finally head to the direction you've been meaning to walk toward to.

"Thank you, for all the negativity you caused, because now I can see nothing but great positivity laying ahead." -

If you don't know me, you probably don't know what I'm talking about.

If you do know me, stop your train of thoughts--no, this is not about "that". This is something new, something incredibly brand new that is so surprising that just smacks me right in the face and wakes me up out of the long,incredibly LONG sleep I've been caught in the middle of.

If you really, really, really know me, without a doubt, you know what I'm talking about.

I kind of hope you don't, though. I like writing in metaphors and intrigues and mysteries that nobody could guess.

By the way, in a much more random note, I wanna go back to Bangkok with my bestfriends. I'm currently seeing our tri photos on facebook now and I'm smiling and grinning to myself just by looking at those.

a moment to think about

Jim Carrey's Yes Man is playing on StarMovies and surprisingly it doesn't lift up my mood.

There were a few (small) events today that did not match my expectations and thus making me feel like I need distractions; I wanna get out for some quick ice cream. Some Cold Stone cheesecake ice cream with biscuit crumbs that will bring a well-deserved smile on my face. I don't know what's wrong exactly, though, I just felt something unsettling but I can't figure out what. This is driving me crazy.

Maybe it's because I had a two-day intensive office training that wore me out; but I had fun, surprisingly. It wasnt what i had in mind. So maybe the key here is to just smile and nod along with no expectation stamped on your forehead.

I had a good dinner with my friends on Friday night.

I think Jim Carrey is getting old, physically.

Now I'm just throwing out random stuff. Sometimes I wonder whether I am heading to the right direction. Everything-wise. But I guess that's part of the excitement, right? That intense feeling of not knowing whether you'll come on top or hit the wall ? I used to love that! Even though i hate uncertainty, i do love excitement.

Right. Before I bore you to tears, I'd better stop this now. I will post a much more meaningful stuff later on, I promise.