I have a thing for words.
And people.
And especially --especially, people who are good with words.
Mmmm.
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Sunday, June 2, 2013
"you're my crutch when my legs stop moving."
I have been wondering endlessly about why I've been so jittery and restless this past few weeks - aside from the fact that I am finally, finally, bidding farewell to my working place for the past four years; my second home. And I realized that maybe it's because I haven't had a chance to pour it all out here.
I don't know any routine other than getting up early, get on the train/car and head into my office, turn on my computer, chitchat with my friends while it hums to life, check my emails, go over my to do list, then head down/upstairs to grab breakfast with them. I don't know any other routine than to have hectic mornings, cut off by a lunch session where all of us go upstairs to crack jokes, fuss and curse about clients, and go back to work blasting out 8Tracks in my cubicle until 5 p.m, followed by coffee/desserts break only to hear about the continued part of those absurd, out-of-this world jokes and curses made by my friends. I don't know how it will feel tomorrow knowing that there won't be any familiar voice yelling dinner orders. I don't know how I can ever get used to turning left or right without seeing my friends there. I used to know the place inch by inch; even with my eyes closed. Come Monday, I will be placed in a completely new, strange environment with unfamiliar surroundings; back to square one. Back to zero.
Notice how I wrote 'friends', instead of 'colleagues'?
Because that's how they feel to me. This love-and-hate relationship between all of us is something I've always treasured deep inside. The non-bullshit way we treat one another and the fact that no matter how hard we tried to disguise it, the sincerity to back up each other and help one another out always manages to show. I will miss each of these unique characters, types of people whom I would never have thought I'd get along with if I hadn't met them there. It's surreal how different yet how alike we all are.
It has been one heck of a ride, and I will never forget the moments leading up to my last day there. Good or bad, I think I learned a hell lot in that place both personally and professionally. It makes me smile, frown, laugh, shake my had in disbelief to think about how naive I was and how I should've been smarter in picking which issues I needed to respond to and which to ignore. And these past few months in particular have been utterly indescribable. I've gone down roads I have never even thought to touch before, allowed myself to feel things I never thought I'd feel before, made decisions I never thought I'd have the guts to make, and said words that surprised even me - in a good way. It's been amazing. Maybe this whole growing up process wasn't a bad idea after all.
(If you knew how much papers and stuff tend to build mountains on my desk, then you know how this pic tells a million words.)
So I guess this is it; on to the next, then. Can't wait to see what other surprises life has in store for me in my next chapter. Looking at how things have been going recently, all I can say is - bring it on, Universe.
:)
I don't know any routine other than getting up early, get on the train/car and head into my office, turn on my computer, chitchat with my friends while it hums to life, check my emails, go over my to do list, then head down/upstairs to grab breakfast with them. I don't know any other routine than to have hectic mornings, cut off by a lunch session where all of us go upstairs to crack jokes, fuss and curse about clients, and go back to work blasting out 8Tracks in my cubicle until 5 p.m, followed by coffee/desserts break only to hear about the continued part of those absurd, out-of-this world jokes and curses made by my friends. I don't know how it will feel tomorrow knowing that there won't be any familiar voice yelling dinner orders. I don't know how I can ever get used to turning left or right without seeing my friends there. I used to know the place inch by inch; even with my eyes closed. Come Monday, I will be placed in a completely new, strange environment with unfamiliar surroundings; back to square one. Back to zero.
Notice how I wrote 'friends', instead of 'colleagues'?
Because that's how they feel to me. This love-and-hate relationship between all of us is something I've always treasured deep inside. The non-bullshit way we treat one another and the fact that no matter how hard we tried to disguise it, the sincerity to back up each other and help one another out always manages to show. I will miss each of these unique characters, types of people whom I would never have thought I'd get along with if I hadn't met them there. It's surreal how different yet how alike we all are.
It has been one heck of a ride, and I will never forget the moments leading up to my last day there. Good or bad, I think I learned a hell lot in that place both personally and professionally. It makes me smile, frown, laugh, shake my had in disbelief to think about how naive I was and how I should've been smarter in picking which issues I needed to respond to and which to ignore. And these past few months in particular have been utterly indescribable. I've gone down roads I have never even thought to touch before, allowed myself to feel things I never thought I'd feel before, made decisions I never thought I'd have the guts to make, and said words that surprised even me - in a good way. It's been amazing. Maybe this whole growing up process wasn't a bad idea after all.
So I guess this is it; on to the next, then. Can't wait to see what other surprises life has in store for me in my next chapter. Looking at how things have been going recently, all I can say is - bring it on, Universe.
:)
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