Is it possible that one simple sentence could ruin your day ?
Can a person really laugh out loud one day and fall completely and utterly silent the next day ?
I hear the sound of something breaking but it's too distant and too vague that I can't recall what it is.
I don't want you to understand this. Please don't read this again, ever. Leave your marks on the doorstep and just let it be. I can't quite put my finger on this but this feeling is highly unsettling. I never expected this to happen; yet somehow i knew this would happen.
The more I read it, the more I understand.
We will never be able to talk about this, I know. Not with the blocks of defensive walls surrounding you. But I would really appreciate if you would just slip a note under the door before you turn around and let the door close behind you.
Selfish, greedy, careless about other people's feelings; those are not her usual characteristics. But people are bound to slip sometimes. And while some people tend to bottle up their feelings, I can't. If I were a bottle, the list of ingredients wouldn't fill the paper. I have too much going on in my head. One particular thought has been staying there for weeks and it just told me that it's not going anywhere.
This is serious, isn't it?
Again, I don't know how to contain what I feel. I'm usually very open and direct and I blurt out every single thing I feel. I shout joyfully when I'm happy and I frown when I'm sad. I can't hide feelings. I don't know how.
But maybe, just maybe, this time I have to clam up and quiet down and zip my lips. For once.
There's always a first time for everything.
So, thanks.
I don't know why you fill my head.
