What are those, again ? The seven deadly sins? Lust, Envy, Greed...I should have googled it first but I'm too lazy. So there you have it.
I think Hypocrisy (Hypocricy?) should be included as well. I'm scared of that word recently.
I'm scared of a lot of things recently. I'm scared of being left in the dark, of being kept in the harsh light, of being lied to, of lying, of being disappointed,....and to disappoint. Scared of knowing things I shouldn't have known about, of feelings I should not be familiar with, scared to forgot, scared to be forgotten, scared to leave footprints, scared to be left with other's footprints. I'm scared of smiling.
I'm scared of being scared all the time- for once I don't want to be careful in every tiny thing I do, I want to let go, I want to scream the most offensive language known to mankind but I know I can't. Not because I'm not allowed to but because I don't have that kind of bone in me. I don't want to think about other people's feelings all the time but I know I can't.
Heck, I get upset just seeing a forgotten pair of rusty children shoe lying motionless in the middle of the street. I can't kill flies. I can't stand not apologizing every minute of the day. Well not literally.
So yeah I don't know if it has anything to do with hypocrisy, or...guilt instead.
I'll post later.
