I CANNOT concentrate on this final stage of my internship report completion. Is completion a word?
I don't know why I can't put my mind to it. Yes, I have the motivation. I am so hopped up with excitement that I'm finally going to finish this endless stuff. But I just cannot concentrate at the moment, and I have no idea why.
Actually......I think I know why. And there's no way in hell I'd put it here.
Come to think of it blog is the perfect place for rants. And you, dear reader, cannot complain about it because in this blog I make all the rules. And rule number one is the moment you type this blog on the web address bar you are entitled to read my ramblings and pent-up frustrations and just smile and nod along.
Insecurities are like flies eating up your flesh one by one.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
and the Oscar goes to...
It's done.
My final report is done. I am currently writing my thank-you notes in Foreword. And I am getting close to tears.
Hahaha you are probably knitting your brows wondering why this person is so friggin' melodramatic. Which I am. I totally am.
I mean, just like Rachel said on Friends, this is the end of an era! This is my last chance to thank all the people that really helped and contributed in my report-making! My last chance ever because soon I will be graduating, I mean, what the heck? I mean, when I was working on my laporan kerja praktek, I thought to myself well, no need to get all choked up; this battle ain't over yet.
But it is now!
So thank you, people, who have helped in the progress. Thank you for supporting me endlessly. You know who you are. *Blows kiss to audience*
Thank you for the journey for the past 4years , girlsss! This is it, we're doing our one last final battle!
I have officially gone mad.
Oh and thanks Biffy, for just being cute :D And for always accompanying me at night til 2 a.m. , running here and there making noises in the kitchen while I work in front of my computer.
At least, I hope it was you.
My final report is done. I am currently writing my thank-you notes in Foreword. And I am getting close to tears.
Hahaha you are probably knitting your brows wondering why this person is so friggin' melodramatic. Which I am. I totally am.
I mean, just like Rachel said on Friends, this is the end of an era! This is my last chance to thank all the people that really helped and contributed in my report-making! My last chance ever because soon I will be graduating, I mean, what the heck? I mean, when I was working on my laporan kerja praktek, I thought to myself well, no need to get all choked up; this battle ain't over yet.
But it is now!
So thank you, people, who have helped in the progress. Thank you for supporting me endlessly. You know who you are. *Blows kiss to audience*
Thank you for the journey for the past 4years , girlsss! This is it, we're doing our one last final battle!
I have officially gone mad.
Oh and thanks Biffy, for just being cute :D And for always accompanying me at night til 2 a.m. , running here and there making noises in the kitchen while I work in front of my computer.
At least, I hope it was you.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
my two favorite quotes of ALL time.
"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave." -Anonymous (I got it from a quotes site; if you claim to be the one who came up with this please stand up. Or leave a comment. Any way you'd prefer.)
I mean, this totally supports my theory! We must have been separated at birth, the author and I.
If you don't have any idea what I meant by "my theory", then just you wait. I don't plan to publish it yet, though few of my closest ppl have heard it from me when they're faced with some relationship trouble =P hahaha
And another one from my MOST favorite movie all time:
"You know how when you're listening to music playing from another room? And you're singing along because it's a tune that you really love? When a door closes or a train passes so you can't hear the music anymore, but you sing along anyway... then, no matter how much time passes, when you hear the music again you're still in exact same time with it. That's what love is like. " Music From Another Room
:) :)
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave." -Anonymous (I got it from a quotes site; if you claim to be the one who came up with this please stand up. Or leave a comment. Any way you'd prefer.)
I mean, this totally supports my theory! We must have been separated at birth, the author and I.
If you don't have any idea what I meant by "my theory", then just you wait. I don't plan to publish it yet, though few of my closest ppl have heard it from me when they're faced with some relationship trouble =P hahaha
And another one from my MOST favorite movie all time:
"You know how when you're listening to music playing from another room? And you're singing along because it's a tune that you really love? When a door closes or a train passes so you can't hear the music anymore, but you sing along anyway... then, no matter how much time passes, when you hear the music again you're still in exact same time with it. That's what love is like. " Music From Another Room
:) :)
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
..and another one, also from facebook.
Dinda completed the quiz "What does the week you were born say about you?" with the result The Week of Leadership – Leo 3 August 11-18.
You assume a commanding role in your family and social group. You are a natural leader, and are a dynamic individual. You are a good planner, capable of organizing an effective plan of attack and seeing it through. You can be aggressive and know what you want and how to get it. Sometimes you can be less compassionate to those around you and lack consideration for their feelings. You are capable of inspiring loyalty, respect and love in others. You see yourself infallible and have tremendous faith in yourself. You are greatly imaginative and creative. As long as you are honored and respected by your mates you will be generous and kind to them, sometimes to a fault. In love you are subject to sudden, explosive, violent, and passionate displays of emotion. You can often be overbearing, combative and unforgiving. Strengths: Commanding – Heroic – Creative Weaknesses: Dictatorial – Selfish – Insensitive .
Heroic? Moi? Dictatorial? Commanding?
Are you kidding me? I've got to be THE LEAST commanding person to ever grace the earth! In love I am 'explosive, violent' ????? Sheesh. This is all pure crap.
...on second thought let's just hope that nugi will not read this one shall we? :p
You assume a commanding role in your family and social group. You are a natural leader, and are a dynamic individual. You are a good planner, capable of organizing an effective plan of attack and seeing it through. You can be aggressive and know what you want and how to get it. Sometimes you can be less compassionate to those around you and lack consideration for their feelings. You are capable of inspiring loyalty, respect and love in others. You see yourself infallible and have tremendous faith in yourself. You are greatly imaginative and creative. As long as you are honored and respected by your mates you will be generous and kind to them, sometimes to a fault. In love you are subject to sudden, explosive, violent, and passionate displays of emotion. You can often be overbearing, combative and unforgiving. Strengths: Commanding – Heroic – Creative Weaknesses: Dictatorial – Selfish – Insensitive .
Heroic? Moi? Dictatorial? Commanding?
Are you kidding me? I've got to be THE LEAST commanding person to ever grace the earth! In love I am 'explosive, violent' ????? Sheesh. This is all pure crap.
...on second thought let's just hope that nugi will not read this one shall we? :p
from facebook quiz. i do not care what you say.
Dinda completed the quiz "Who is your lifetime match?" with the result They are born between 21st June - 23rd July.
You're a real charmer but you don't get swept along by the first person who shows an interest in you. You need time to be sure of your feelings and you don't get involved lightly. But when you wake up one day telling yourself you want and love a certain person, your life takes on a whole different meaning. You cover them with kisses and can come across as a bit possessive. No-one touches the one you love! As for your loyalty, it's exemplary. Out of all the people you have encountered throughout your life, you will want to be loved-up in the arms of a one of these kinds of people...and stay there. You two form a wonderful alliance together. From the moment your two meet, a calm climate, full of love and serenity, will be born. You will feel good in their company, you have more things in common than differences. Like you, they love children and family. Alongside them, you will feel like you're in a cocoon, without ever becoming bored. And you have one thing on your mind: building a happy, comfortable and solid nest with them!.
Of course. *nods solemnly*
You're a real charmer but you don't get swept along by the first person who shows an interest in you. You need time to be sure of your feelings and you don't get involved lightly. But when you wake up one day telling yourself you want and love a certain person, your life takes on a whole different meaning. You cover them with kisses and can come across as a bit possessive. No-one touches the one you love! As for your loyalty, it's exemplary. Out of all the people you have encountered throughout your life, you will want to be loved-up in the arms of a one of these kinds of people...and stay there. You two form a wonderful alliance together. From the moment your two meet, a calm climate, full of love and serenity, will be born. You will feel good in their company, you have more things in common than differences. Like you, they love children and family. Alongside them, you will feel like you're in a cocoon, without ever becoming bored. And you have one thing on your mind: building a happy, comfortable and solid nest with them!.
Of course. *nods solemnly*
Saturday, July 4, 2009
just an afterthought
I think I've been imagining all this.
I think I'm feeling something weird inside my chest but I don't know why. It's like reaching for that cookie jar while you know that your hand is gonna be trapped shut inside it if you ever try to reach for the cookie.
Yet you try anyway.
And out of fear that you might get stuck or injured, you let your hand dangle. In-between reaching the cookies, already touching the tips of the chocolate-filled crust but unwilling to grab it in case the lid shuts.
And all around you people are laughing behind your back. "Nice try," they'd say. Or "Only morons would do something that they know is filled with risks."
But sometimes, you get your hand out of that jar. Because in a dangling position, your hand gets tired after all. Sometimes, you're distracted by all the pretty things in the cabinet. The lollipops, the cotton candy, chocolate caramel bars, Krispie Treats, gumballs, colorful, delicious, seductive. But no matter what, eventually, you end up glancing at the jar. Wondering what it it would be like to take a bite.
Because from what I hear, chocolate chip cookies give you the best comfort and warmth.
Even the most average one. Even the misshaped ones. But if you want to take a bite, then you have to insert your hand wholly inside the jar. Feel the lid shut down on you, causing you to cry in pain. Cursing at yourself for being such an idiot. You knew this was going to happen. Yet you did it anyway.
I guess this is what makes a human being; a mix of bravery and stupidity.
I think I'm feeling something weird inside my chest but I don't know why. It's like reaching for that cookie jar while you know that your hand is gonna be trapped shut inside it if you ever try to reach for the cookie.
Yet you try anyway.
And out of fear that you might get stuck or injured, you let your hand dangle. In-between reaching the cookies, already touching the tips of the chocolate-filled crust but unwilling to grab it in case the lid shuts.
And all around you people are laughing behind your back. "Nice try," they'd say. Or "Only morons would do something that they know is filled with risks."
But sometimes, you get your hand out of that jar. Because in a dangling position, your hand gets tired after all. Sometimes, you're distracted by all the pretty things in the cabinet. The lollipops, the cotton candy, chocolate caramel bars, Krispie Treats, gumballs, colorful, delicious, seductive. But no matter what, eventually, you end up glancing at the jar. Wondering what it it would be like to take a bite.
Because from what I hear, chocolate chip cookies give you the best comfort and warmth.
Even the most average one. Even the misshaped ones. But if you want to take a bite, then you have to insert your hand wholly inside the jar. Feel the lid shut down on you, causing you to cry in pain. Cursing at yourself for being such an idiot. You knew this was going to happen. Yet you did it anyway.
I guess this is what makes a human being; a mix of bravery and stupidity.
youtube this
...due to the demand from a certain friend in my lat post *wink* I am finally updating this blog. I'm sorry, bloggy. I've just been very wrapped up in work and report-making. Hey now that I work part-time at a bookstore, I get to read books I don't really have to buy, right, so yesterday I read A Lion Named Christian which is a true story about two Australian guys' heart-warming relationship with their pet lion they bought in Harrods in London in 1971.
I picked up that book because, well, I admire lions. Not surprising since my star sign is symbolized by them and they rule the jungle. I love the feeling of leading something. Lions are known to be affectionate with children and they're calm but tend to get angry as hell when provoked. We do have a lot in common, right? Except that I don't have a pair of teeth that could tear you skin open with one graze. Or paws as big as my head. Nor do I eat a cow for breakfast.
Well anyway.
The story was really touching I felt my eyes burn when I finished the book. There was one image that stayed on my mind. The Aussie guys bought him when Chrstian was a little cub, right, so they let him stay in their apartment but he grew so big that eventually he was forced to be flown to Africa in orde to get a better life. Years later, the Aussies, who used to spend their time 24/7 rolling with Christian in the park playing ball and teaching him manners (whenever Christian leaps at them and knocking them to the ground, making them hopeless and unable to do anything but pray to dear God he wouldn't screw their heads off, Christian notices his masters' discomfort that slowly he backs away and starts nudging them gently, waiting to be forgiven) decided to visit Christian in Africa. It had been years since they last separated and the Aussies were sure their now 4-years-old pet wouldn't recognize them. But what happened was, the second Christian strolled by, with the trademark graceful, confident steps of a ruler of the jungle, he stopped dead in his tracks, saw his masters waving to him and he ran (and I mean really ran) towards them happily, and leapt up to his master's body with huge paws circling his shoulders for an affectionate hug.
I nearly cried.
I mean, you have to look at the image. I didn't know the image and video were so popular in youtube. I searched 'lion named christian' and found the great video of the infamous hug that stole everyone's hearts. Rumor had it that Christian was the biggest and most handsome lion in his place in Africa. And he protected humans, too.
When they weren't messing with him, of course.
I remember a certain part of the book that told a story of how he was kept in a pet store or something, and he was the object of display (obviously) and he knew it, so he always put a little show. He was playing with little kids who werent afraid of him, and to those who were, he roared. It turns out that lions know exactly who are afraid of them and love to show their authorities to them.
But not to his masters; the two Aussies who loved him like nobody else. The book said that Christian was always trying to get them to play hide-and-seek but they sometimes ignored him on purpose because playing with him was turning out to be so exhausting (yeah well, it ain't exactly a rabbit pet you're dealing with here, mate). I mean, how cute was that?! This shows, though, that the moral story of it all is: lions are loyals.
when they find someone who respects and loves them, of course.
*coughs*
I'm urging you readers to look it up on youtube. It's really touching.
I will get back for another post later- time to eat.
YOUTUBE IT !
I picked up that book because, well, I admire lions. Not surprising since my star sign is symbolized by them and they rule the jungle. I love the feeling of leading something. Lions are known to be affectionate with children and they're calm but tend to get angry as hell when provoked. We do have a lot in common, right? Except that I don't have a pair of teeth that could tear you skin open with one graze. Or paws as big as my head. Nor do I eat a cow for breakfast.
Well anyway.
The story was really touching I felt my eyes burn when I finished the book. There was one image that stayed on my mind. The Aussie guys bought him when Chrstian was a little cub, right, so they let him stay in their apartment but he grew so big that eventually he was forced to be flown to Africa in orde to get a better life. Years later, the Aussies, who used to spend their time 24/7 rolling with Christian in the park playing ball and teaching him manners (whenever Christian leaps at them and knocking them to the ground, making them hopeless and unable to do anything but pray to dear God he wouldn't screw their heads off, Christian notices his masters' discomfort that slowly he backs away and starts nudging them gently, waiting to be forgiven) decided to visit Christian in Africa. It had been years since they last separated and the Aussies were sure their now 4-years-old pet wouldn't recognize them. But what happened was, the second Christian strolled by, with the trademark graceful, confident steps of a ruler of the jungle, he stopped dead in his tracks, saw his masters waving to him and he ran (and I mean really ran) towards them happily, and leapt up to his master's body with huge paws circling his shoulders for an affectionate hug.
I nearly cried.
I mean, you have to look at the image. I didn't know the image and video were so popular in youtube. I searched 'lion named christian' and found the great video of the infamous hug that stole everyone's hearts. Rumor had it that Christian was the biggest and most handsome lion in his place in Africa. And he protected humans, too.
When they weren't messing with him, of course.
I remember a certain part of the book that told a story of how he was kept in a pet store or something, and he was the object of display (obviously) and he knew it, so he always put a little show. He was playing with little kids who werent afraid of him, and to those who were, he roared. It turns out that lions know exactly who are afraid of them and love to show their authorities to them.
But not to his masters; the two Aussies who loved him like nobody else. The book said that Christian was always trying to get them to play hide-and-seek but they sometimes ignored him on purpose because playing with him was turning out to be so exhausting (yeah well, it ain't exactly a rabbit pet you're dealing with here, mate). I mean, how cute was that?! This shows, though, that the moral story of it all is: lions are loyals.
when they find someone who respects and loves them, of course.
*coughs*
I'm urging you readers to look it up on youtube. It's really touching.
I will get back for another post later- time to eat.
YOUTUBE IT !
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