I know I want to write a lot of things but I can't.
I'm trying this new method called 'bottling up'. In a way, I have to start holding myself back for the greater sake of everyone else.
Everyone else but me, that is.
Anyway, if you've been reading my blog, you notice that I once put my dream wedding details, right? How I've put Van Morrisson's Someone Like You as the dream song? Well I have another song option now which I think will make the perfect song for the big day.
They Bring Me To You - Joshua Radin
You looked like the sun
I was the only one who could stare until you were done shining on me
and as we drank our wine and let the world fade away
the sunrise tried to end it while we tried to stay.
The rest of my life can't compare to this night
and only the heartaches have given me sight,
they bring me to you, they bring me to you.
Moon pours through the ceiling tonight embraces us tight
shows me we're right for each other and as we lie here
and let the world fade away
the sunrise tries to end it while we try to stay.
The rest of my life can't compare to this night
and only the heartaches have given me sight,
they bring me to you, they bring me to you, they bring me to you, they bring me to you.
It's all about the first night and last, some people say
well I love you so much more tonight, more than yesterday.
The rest of my life can't compare to this night
and only the heartaches have given me sight,
they bring me to you, they bring me to you, they bring me to you, they bring me to you.
Seriously, are you kidding me? To have a guy sing their hearts out for you with those lyrics? I really like reading each and every one of the words; I think it's beautiful.
So, there you go. What's your perfect song for your big day ?
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Sunday, April 4, 2010
a different topic
hai :)
It's Sunday and I don't know what to do and it's only 12 p.m. Yes I get bored easily. I've eaten, watched TV, played with dog, played the internet, and then I realized hey, why not update my blog with another useless/random post?
If you're one of those people who loathes astrology, you'd better stop reading this. Because sometimes I'm drawn to them and I can't stop reading them once I start; it's like watching a car accident. But I don't read the daily stuff, like whether I'm gonna have luck or slip on a wet floor and fall flat on my face or get hit by a bus or something; I also don't care about compatibility match. I just read my start sign profile and what a person in my sign is really like.
I really am not good with words.
So from zodiacfacts's blog, I compiled some stuff:
#Leo : What leo needs is a partner who can tolerate the shows of ego and see through them for what they are : an attempt to let the world know that leo's love is available- all a person needs to do to get it is just say thank you.
(Let's seeee. I do feel bothered when someone fails to say thank you. Is it petty? Selfish? Annoying? Yes, well, that's what makes us human. I bet you regret being friends with me, huh.)
They are the life of any relationship, and a courtship with them will rarely prove dull. They need to be lavished with attention, but can also do that in return. They need lovers who can keep up with them and match there wits. If boredom creeps into the relationship, they look for greener pastures. Also they need a partner who can understand their needs and give them the attention they need.
(SEE !!! I DO get bored easily! So this is one of my traits. Nice. And then I got another one from here)
Leo woman will dominate, but not completely for she still needs the man to lead the way and give her the desired sense of approval, she looks up to her man. Leo woman is perfect for the man who is affectionate and has a strong character but not too controlling. She needs someone who is passionate about everything in their life and who strives for the best in everything, because so does she. Do not look at other women when you are with her, she has to be the only one in your eyes. The thought of competition with other women completely turns her off. The secret of the Leo is that they need to be needed.
(Ridiculous as it is, there's no better paragraph to sum up the characters like the one above. And I particularly like the very last sentence; I don't know why.)
Be funny, Leos love to be entertained and they love to laugh. If you can make them laugh, you're good! Leos like the grand things in life, treat them to a lavish dinner or a cultural upscale event.
(These are two contradicting sentences for me. While the first is absolutely undoubtedly true, the last sentence isn't really the same. I do like the grand things in life, but I also like ALL types of dinner since my most favorite exercise is chewing. But then again I do love cultural events !)
And this one says:
Leos are usually very generous and helpful. They love to spoil friends, family and romantic partners, buying extravagant gifts or blowing their money on a good time. Most are excellent cooks, and they enjoy feeding others.They are quite experimental with cooking and will try unusual food and new recipes. Many look a bit like lions, with smooth cheekbones, large faces, thick wavy hair and catlike eyes. Leo popularity is enhanced by a tendency to share time, energy, money and affection with others. All they require in return is to receive a larger share of affection than the average person. Leos are usually quite soft-hearted and have a particular fondness for children and animals.
(AGREED ! Well I hope I *will be* an excellent cook; that's still yet to be proven. But the other stuff--fondness for kids and animals, loves affections, etc--they're absolutely true. And oh I hope I don't physically look like a lion though :s)
Typical Leos are very helpful and generous to their friends, lovers, and family members, and also very protective. They won't tolerate others badmouthing those they care about, and they're willing to fight about it. However, Leos also have a tendency to be domineering due to a natural inclination for leadership. This can lead to friction when dating strong, independent-minded individuals, though these are exactly the sort of people that Leos tend to be drawn to.
Typical Leos are loyal and romantic. When they fall in love, they fall heavily. A betrayed Leo will not easily get over the hurt. The wounds run deep. When they do forgive, they usually forgive completely, however. Like all the fire signs, they are quick to anger and quick to get over it. Hurt a Leo woman's pride and she roars like a lioness. Still, they don’t like being lied to or deceived and it will take them a long time, if ever, to forgive
(Hm.)
Leo-moon people like to be the center of attention. They require a higher-than-average level of appreciation from those around them in order to feel secure, but most earn this by being generous and helpful.
And, the Leo will take care of matters in the home. To go out and make a living is not so distant for a Leo to think about. In fact, careers and professions are usually very important to a Leo. And, they like being in charge. They like being the supervisors, the leaders within their own business. They don't really care to follow in the back seat of anyone else. Leos pioneer new directions.
(Okay, they're making it sound like I should join the military or something. Yes, I love to lead. But most times, I'd love to be led as well. To have my hand held when I cross the street. To sit back for once and let the other person take a good care of my needs.
ANYWAY.
Let's get back to topic.)
So basically all these star sign stuff are saying all the same things. Interesting.
The weather is so extremely hot, I want ice cream !!!! I don't know why Ben and Jerry's doesn't have a store here in my town. Don't they know people are willing to line up the block just to get a taste of their Chunky Monkey?
And by 'people', I mean me.
I'll post later.
It's Sunday and I don't know what to do and it's only 12 p.m. Yes I get bored easily. I've eaten, watched TV, played with dog, played the internet, and then I realized hey, why not update my blog with another useless/random post?
If you're one of those people who loathes astrology, you'd better stop reading this. Because sometimes I'm drawn to them and I can't stop reading them once I start; it's like watching a car accident. But I don't read the daily stuff, like whether I'm gonna have luck or slip on a wet floor and fall flat on my face or get hit by a bus or something; I also don't care about compatibility match. I just read my start sign profile and what a person in my sign is really like.
I really am not good with words.
So from zodiacfacts's blog, I compiled some stuff:
#Leo : What leo needs is a partner who can tolerate the shows of ego and see through them for what they are : an attempt to let the world know that leo's love is available- all a person needs to do to get it is just say thank you.
(Let's seeee. I do feel bothered when someone fails to say thank you. Is it petty? Selfish? Annoying? Yes, well, that's what makes us human. I bet you regret being friends with me, huh.)
They are the life of any relationship, and a courtship with them will rarely prove dull. They need to be lavished with attention, but can also do that in return. They need lovers who can keep up with them and match there wits. If boredom creeps into the relationship, they look for greener pastures. Also they need a partner who can understand their needs and give them the attention they need.
(SEE !!! I DO get bored easily! So this is one of my traits. Nice. And then I got another one from here)
Leo woman will dominate, but not completely for she still needs the man to lead the way and give her the desired sense of approval, she looks up to her man. Leo woman is perfect for the man who is affectionate and has a strong character but not too controlling. She needs someone who is passionate about everything in their life and who strives for the best in everything, because so does she. Do not look at other women when you are with her, she has to be the only one in your eyes. The thought of competition with other women completely turns her off. The secret of the Leo is that they need to be needed.
(Ridiculous as it is, there's no better paragraph to sum up the characters like the one above. And I particularly like the very last sentence; I don't know why.)
Be funny, Leos love to be entertained and they love to laugh. If you can make them laugh, you're good! Leos like the grand things in life, treat them to a lavish dinner or a cultural upscale event.
(These are two contradicting sentences for me. While the first is absolutely undoubtedly true, the last sentence isn't really the same. I do like the grand things in life, but I also like ALL types of dinner since my most favorite exercise is chewing. But then again I do love cultural events !)
And this one says:
Leos are usually very generous and helpful. They love to spoil friends, family and romantic partners, buying extravagant gifts or blowing their money on a good time. Most are excellent cooks, and they enjoy feeding others.They are quite experimental with cooking and will try unusual food and new recipes. Many look a bit like lions, with smooth cheekbones, large faces, thick wavy hair and catlike eyes. Leo popularity is enhanced by a tendency to share time, energy, money and affection with others. All they require in return is to receive a larger share of affection than the average person. Leos are usually quite soft-hearted and have a particular fondness for children and animals.
(AGREED ! Well I hope I *will be* an excellent cook; that's still yet to be proven. But the other stuff--fondness for kids and animals, loves affections, etc--they're absolutely true. And oh I hope I don't physically look like a lion though :s)
Typical Leos are very helpful and generous to their friends, lovers, and family members, and also very protective. They won't tolerate others badmouthing those they care about, and they're willing to fight about it. However, Leos also have a tendency to be domineering due to a natural inclination for leadership. This can lead to friction when dating strong, independent-minded individuals, though these are exactly the sort of people that Leos tend to be drawn to.
Typical Leos are loyal and romantic. When they fall in love, they fall heavily. A betrayed Leo will not easily get over the hurt. The wounds run deep. When they do forgive, they usually forgive completely, however. Like all the fire signs, they are quick to anger and quick to get over it. Hurt a Leo woman's pride and she roars like a lioness. Still, they don’t like being lied to or deceived and it will take them a long time, if ever, to forgive
(Hm.)
Leo-moon people like to be the center of attention. They require a higher-than-average level of appreciation from those around them in order to feel secure, but most earn this by being generous and helpful.
And, the Leo will take care of matters in the home. To go out and make a living is not so distant for a Leo to think about. In fact, careers and professions are usually very important to a Leo. And, they like being in charge. They like being the supervisors, the leaders within their own business. They don't really care to follow in the back seat of anyone else. Leos pioneer new directions.
(Okay, they're making it sound like I should join the military or something. Yes, I love to lead. But most times, I'd love to be led as well. To have my hand held when I cross the street. To sit back for once and let the other person take a good care of my needs.
ANYWAY.
Let's get back to topic.)
So basically all these star sign stuff are saying all the same things. Interesting.
The weather is so extremely hot, I want ice cream !!!! I don't know why Ben and Jerry's doesn't have a store here in my town. Don't they know people are willing to line up the block just to get a taste of their Chunky Monkey?
And by 'people', I mean me.
I'll post later.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
a loss.
Before I get into anything else, I just want to express my deepest condolences to Mas Bangun's family for the passing of his father this morning due to stroke.
While I only met him a few times, I know he was a stand up guy, an intelligent and full-of-humor father and businessman who loved his big family so much. He already considered my sister as his daughter which is why she is currently a big mess right now.
But seeing his personality, I know that at least thousands of people are praying for him right now to appreciate everything and that he has touched a lot of lives during his good years, and that he must be in a much better place right now.
So I bid you farewell Om Adjie, too bad we did not get the chance to know each other further but it was an honor of mine to have known a man like you. You have left well-mannered and amazing sons and daughter and that is why we are all praying for you up there.
While I only met him a few times, I know he was a stand up guy, an intelligent and full-of-humor father and businessman who loved his big family so much. He already considered my sister as his daughter which is why she is currently a big mess right now.
But seeing his personality, I know that at least thousands of people are praying for him right now to appreciate everything and that he has touched a lot of lives during his good years, and that he must be in a much better place right now.
So I bid you farewell Om Adjie, too bad we did not get the chance to know each other further but it was an honor of mine to have known a man like you. You have left well-mannered and amazing sons and daughter and that is why we are all praying for you up there.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
take me out of this town
"I was crazy when I said I could do this. And even more delusional when I said I'm fine."
Saturday, March 20, 2010
you shouldn't read this.
Is it possible that one simple sentence could ruin your day ?
Can a person really laugh out loud one day and fall completely and utterly silent the next day ?
I hear the sound of something breaking but it's too distant and too vague that I can't recall what it is.
I don't want you to understand this. Please don't read this again, ever. Leave your marks on the doorstep and just let it be. I can't quite put my finger on this but this feeling is highly unsettling. I never expected this to happen; yet somehow i knew this would happen.
The more I read it, the more I understand.
We will never be able to talk about this, I know. Not with the blocks of defensive walls surrounding you. But I would really appreciate if you would just slip a note under the door before you turn around and let the door close behind you.
Selfish, greedy, careless about other people's feelings; those are not her usual characteristics. But people are bound to slip sometimes. And while some people tend to bottle up their feelings, I can't. If I were a bottle, the list of ingredients wouldn't fill the paper. I have too much going on in my head. One particular thought has been staying there for weeks and it just told me that it's not going anywhere.
This is serious, isn't it?
Again, I don't know how to contain what I feel. I'm usually very open and direct and I blurt out every single thing I feel. I shout joyfully when I'm happy and I frown when I'm sad. I can't hide feelings. I don't know how.
But maybe, just maybe, this time I have to clam up and quiet down and zip my lips. For once.
There's always a first time for everything.
So, thanks.
I don't know why you fill my head.
Can a person really laugh out loud one day and fall completely and utterly silent the next day ?
I hear the sound of something breaking but it's too distant and too vague that I can't recall what it is.
I don't want you to understand this. Please don't read this again, ever. Leave your marks on the doorstep and just let it be. I can't quite put my finger on this but this feeling is highly unsettling. I never expected this to happen; yet somehow i knew this would happen.
The more I read it, the more I understand.
We will never be able to talk about this, I know. Not with the blocks of defensive walls surrounding you. But I would really appreciate if you would just slip a note under the door before you turn around and let the door close behind you.
Selfish, greedy, careless about other people's feelings; those are not her usual characteristics. But people are bound to slip sometimes. And while some people tend to bottle up their feelings, I can't. If I were a bottle, the list of ingredients wouldn't fill the paper. I have too much going on in my head. One particular thought has been staying there for weeks and it just told me that it's not going anywhere.
This is serious, isn't it?
Again, I don't know how to contain what I feel. I'm usually very open and direct and I blurt out every single thing I feel. I shout joyfully when I'm happy and I frown when I'm sad. I can't hide feelings. I don't know how.
But maybe, just maybe, this time I have to clam up and quiet down and zip my lips. For once.
There's always a first time for everything.
So, thanks.
I don't know why you fill my head.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
catching me off guard
Relieved, free, letting out final sighs of happiness and pleasure.
I am all smiles again.
The burden's been lifted, a burden I didn't even know I had until it was taken off of my shoulders, which makes it even more relieving. All of the question marks, the queasiness, the worrying, the tiredness have all vanished into thin air ALL at the SAME TIME, slowly turning that question mark into a "=" and a ")".
It is true after all, that you need an extra fresh ice-cold water to be thrown into your face to realize that you've been living in a destructive heat all this time. You are now able to see things in a clearer view, put on a bigger and more sincere smile, stand up tall and straight and finally head to the direction you've been meaning to walk toward to.
"Thank you, for all the negativity you caused, because now I can see nothing but great positivity laying ahead." -
If you don't know me, you probably don't know what I'm talking about.
If you do know me, stop your train of thoughts--no, this is not about "that". This is something new, something incredibly brand new that is so surprising that just smacks me right in the face and wakes me up out of the long,incredibly LONG sleep I've been caught in the middle of.
If you really, really, really know me, without a doubt, you know what I'm talking about.
I kind of hope you don't, though. I like writing in metaphors and intrigues and mysteries that nobody could guess.
By the way, in a much more random note, I wanna go back to Bangkok with my bestfriends. I'm currently seeing our tri photos on facebook now and I'm smiling and grinning to myself just by looking at those.
I am all smiles again.
The burden's been lifted, a burden I didn't even know I had until it was taken off of my shoulders, which makes it even more relieving. All of the question marks, the queasiness, the worrying, the tiredness have all vanished into thin air ALL at the SAME TIME, slowly turning that question mark into a "=" and a ")".
It is true after all, that you need an extra fresh ice-cold water to be thrown into your face to realize that you've been living in a destructive heat all this time. You are now able to see things in a clearer view, put on a bigger and more sincere smile, stand up tall and straight and finally head to the direction you've been meaning to walk toward to.
"Thank you, for all the negativity you caused, because now I can see nothing but great positivity laying ahead." -
If you don't know me, you probably don't know what I'm talking about.
If you do know me, stop your train of thoughts--no, this is not about "that". This is something new, something incredibly brand new that is so surprising that just smacks me right in the face and wakes me up out of the long,incredibly LONG sleep I've been caught in the middle of.
If you really, really, really know me, without a doubt, you know what I'm talking about.
I kind of hope you don't, though. I like writing in metaphors and intrigues and mysteries that nobody could guess.
By the way, in a much more random note, I wanna go back to Bangkok with my bestfriends. I'm currently seeing our tri photos on facebook now and I'm smiling and grinning to myself just by looking at those.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
a moment to think about
Jim Carrey's Yes Man is playing on StarMovies and surprisingly it doesn't lift up my mood.
There were a few (small) events today that did not match my expectations and thus making me feel like I need distractions; I wanna get out for some quick ice cream. Some Cold Stone cheesecake ice cream with biscuit crumbs that will bring a well-deserved smile on my face. I don't know what's wrong exactly, though, I just felt something unsettling but I can't figure out what. This is driving me crazy.
Maybe it's because I had a two-day intensive office training that wore me out; but I had fun, surprisingly. It wasnt what i had in mind. So maybe the key here is to just smile and nod along with no expectation stamped on your forehead.
I had a good dinner with my friends on Friday night.
I think Jim Carrey is getting old, physically.
Now I'm just throwing out random stuff. Sometimes I wonder whether I am heading to the right direction. Everything-wise. But I guess that's part of the excitement, right? That intense feeling of not knowing whether you'll come on top or hit the wall ? I used to love that! Even though i hate uncertainty, i do love excitement.
Right. Before I bore you to tears, I'd better stop this now. I will post a much more meaningful stuff later on, I promise.
There were a few (small) events today that did not match my expectations and thus making me feel like I need distractions; I wanna get out for some quick ice cream. Some Cold Stone cheesecake ice cream with biscuit crumbs that will bring a well-deserved smile on my face. I don't know what's wrong exactly, though, I just felt something unsettling but I can't figure out what. This is driving me crazy.
Maybe it's because I had a two-day intensive office training that wore me out; but I had fun, surprisingly. It wasnt what i had in mind. So maybe the key here is to just smile and nod along with no expectation stamped on your forehead.
I had a good dinner with my friends on Friday night.
I think Jim Carrey is getting old, physically.
Now I'm just throwing out random stuff. Sometimes I wonder whether I am heading to the right direction. Everything-wise. But I guess that's part of the excitement, right? That intense feeling of not knowing whether you'll come on top or hit the wall ? I used to love that! Even though i hate uncertainty, i do love excitement.
Right. Before I bore you to tears, I'd better stop this now. I will post a much more meaningful stuff later on, I promise.
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